Hi
today would be.... day 23 of my cycle. I wasn't feeling anything up till today ; but I do have sore-ish boobs; getting increasingly sore as the morning goes on. I had an awful sleep last night. My partner has now taken to making a munching noise in his sleep ; on top of the snoring and rolling over to my side of the bed AND that it was uncharacteristically warm in London last night. So I'm tired and have sore boobs; and actually a bit of back ache...
I've already convinced myself I'm pregnant; but I do this every month as soon as I get any wee twinge of anything; I'm in a bad mood; must mean I'm hormonal and pregnant; I get a stitch in my side; oh; that'll be implantation -I'm definitely pregnant. As so it goes on like this. So we'll see; I will have a much better idea in a few days.
Incidentally; I get sore boobs every month about a week before I'm due on and kind of during those few days. Generally I'm quite lucky and it only lasts 2 -3days and I actually don't get PMT like other girls. I don't get weepy; or irrational or really moody. Really..... honest :)
I am off to Hong Kong tonight and internet although Im sure its widely available in Hong Kong ; I don't think I will blog from an internet cafe... I'll be back Tuesday and then off on hols on Wednesday night. Really need this break.
Check in with me in a few days and I will give you my new list of symptoms; imagined pregnancy or just plain period cramps etc... Keep everything crossed for me guys. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday 30 September 2011
Pregnancy from day one ( conception-to birth)
NB* I started this diary a week ago so the first blog will be kind of long as it covers a week from conception ( fingers crossed) This is the journey of a 36yr old trying for a baby for 13months..
I am in bed; watching the Wright Stuff ; having had my legs in the air since Daybreak; ( the show-) not since 7am. I've whipped away the pillows a little while ago as I really needed a cuppa and I felt like lying in this position was giving me heartburn..
My story so far is....
I went off the pill in August 2010 when my sister had a baby; I was always fairly broody but that just sent me over the edge. He's now 1yr and one month and I'm still doing the " oh; my boobs are sore and I'm really knackered; I'm definitely pregnant this month!!!!" Only to come on ...yet again. Sound familiar??
Going off the pill after close to 16yrs on it was weird as I thought it would upset my whole social calender and ruin holidays and such like but its OK ladies; it generally works out 30 day cycles. I'm a year on and I'm pretty clockwork. 31 days.
In December of 2010 I went for an Ultrascan... in Bangkok. The scan was basic; she said; everything ( the ovaries) looked normal but also said; 'that says nothing about the function'.
I should mention that I am cabin crew; in other words a trolley dolley; whatever it is you want to call it. Every flight I have, I have a conversation with new crew; men and women who are in more or less the same position as me; trying for a baby; have tried and been successful; unsuccessful ; miscarriages and all sorts.
I may have a new story every week or so on their struggles too. Depending on if I can keep this up or I'm just having a rant today. I will also; if I don't get busted; tell you how much my partner supports or annoys me along the way and "IF" I get pregnant will do the same and you can follow our ups and downs.
I get this ovulation kit every month; and MOSTLY.. not every month ... I ovualte. Its generally about day 15 or 16 counted from the first day I see blood, as I put it. Every 4 or 5months I don't get that line; but to be fair I did run out of tests one month by day 17 so didn't try day 18; so you never know??
My Partner has some app on his phone which never really seems to get it right and he is convinced his app is the authority on dates; despite it being a week out last month. That's typical him though.
I digress; I do have a tendancy to go off at a tangent. I wasn't ovulating yesterday; according to the stick but to be fair; it was day 14; today is day 15 and it 'should' be today. I will check about lunchtime as they say the morning pee can give a false positive. I am off to L.A tomorrow though; and I know a woman; same age as me who is also trying but she has a condition and is worried she will have problems ; I flew with her about 4-5months ago she was just starting to try and the fact that she is on my flight means she is still trying as you have to be grounded ( ground duties rather than flying duties) when you get pregnant.
After a year of talking to people... many many people ; I feel I have heard all the different methods; times; positions; however ; so far it hasn't happened so mabye something is medically wrong ;maybe its flying for a living or just general stuff.
Next week I have to go for that day 21 blood test thing; and also it checks if I am going in to early menopause..... so will let you know how that goes too. I've wanted to get down a form of diary that hopefully I can look back on some day and say; "This is the journey I've gone on ; trying to make you. :) "
NEXT DAY
BRB.
I am in bed; watching the Wright Stuff ; having had my legs in the air since Daybreak; ( the show-) not since 7am. I've whipped away the pillows a little while ago as I really needed a cuppa and I felt like lying in this position was giving me heartburn..
My story so far is....
I went off the pill in August 2010 when my sister had a baby; I was always fairly broody but that just sent me over the edge. He's now 1yr and one month and I'm still doing the " oh; my boobs are sore and I'm really knackered; I'm definitely pregnant this month!!!!" Only to come on ...yet again. Sound familiar??
Going off the pill after close to 16yrs on it was weird as I thought it would upset my whole social calender and ruin holidays and such like but its OK ladies; it generally works out 30 day cycles. I'm a year on and I'm pretty clockwork. 31 days.
In December of 2010 I went for an Ultrascan... in Bangkok. The scan was basic; she said; everything ( the ovaries) looked normal but also said; 'that says nothing about the function'.
I should mention that I am cabin crew; in other words a trolley dolley; whatever it is you want to call it. Every flight I have, I have a conversation with new crew; men and women who are in more or less the same position as me; trying for a baby; have tried and been successful; unsuccessful ; miscarriages and all sorts.
I may have a new story every week or so on their struggles too. Depending on if I can keep this up or I'm just having a rant today. I will also; if I don't get busted; tell you how much my partner supports or annoys me along the way and "IF" I get pregnant will do the same and you can follow our ups and downs.
I get this ovulation kit every month; and MOSTLY.. not every month ... I ovualte. Its generally about day 15 or 16 counted from the first day I see blood, as I put it. Every 4 or 5months I don't get that line; but to be fair I did run out of tests one month by day 17 so didn't try day 18; so you never know??
My Partner has some app on his phone which never really seems to get it right and he is convinced his app is the authority on dates; despite it being a week out last month. That's typical him though.
I digress; I do have a tendancy to go off at a tangent. I wasn't ovulating yesterday; according to the stick but to be fair; it was day 14; today is day 15 and it 'should' be today. I will check about lunchtime as they say the morning pee can give a false positive. I am off to L.A tomorrow though; and I know a woman; same age as me who is also trying but she has a condition and is worried she will have problems ; I flew with her about 4-5months ago she was just starting to try and the fact that she is on my flight means she is still trying as you have to be grounded ( ground duties rather than flying duties) when you get pregnant.
After a year of talking to people... many many people ; I feel I have heard all the different methods; times; positions; however ; so far it hasn't happened so mabye something is medically wrong ;maybe its flying for a living or just general stuff.
Next week I have to go for that day 21 blood test thing; and also it checks if I am going in to early menopause..... so will let you know how that goes too. I've wanted to get down a form of diary that hopefully I can look back on some day and say; "This is the journey I've gone on ; trying to make you. :) "
NEXT DAY
Day 15 of my cycle; I'm going to do the ovulation test strip now; have not needed a pee for ages.
It better be today as I have one more chance tonight and then I'm away to L.A for 3days and the ship will have sailed.
BRB.
Ok Good news is I'm at least ovulating; bad news is I have to have sex AGAIN this evening/tonight. lol.
It was a piece of cake at the beginning; all the excitement of trying; but now; I have this small window of opportunity to do it and he'll come in from work; we'll have dinner; a few glasses of wine maybe; watch something really crap on the telly ; go upstairs and he'll brush his teeth in the bathroom; and I can hear it; I am weird; I have a weird phobia about the sound of teeth being brushed; it freaks me out.
Like when a Colgate ad comes on I have to block my ears ; so the sound of him brushing his teeth in the mornings and nights really makes me cringe. I know; I need therapy. I actually don't like to see anyone brushing their teeth on T.V. all foaming at the mouth like Kujo or something... yuck!!!!
So its not unusual to see me these days legs at a 45degree angle and my fingers stuffed in my ears ; tres sexy non???
So.. thats it from me for a couple of days as I won't be able to blog when I'm away this time. But when I get back I will give you the low down on the last few days and any of my normal imaginary symptoms I get when I am convinced I am pregnant. I have my test when I get back the FSH ; and Progesterone test and LH test; Have no clue really what it all means but will fill you in when I know more.
5 DAYS LATER day 21 of cycle
Ok today is the day of the blood tests; I googled it all last night; its meant to check hormones; and to detect early menopause and all that. Its so scary really; I know a girl/woman; she went in to menopause at age 37 and is devastated she can't have a baby.
So after much trepidation I went for the test and it was all over in 2 mins; kind of an anti-climax. There were loads of people getting blood; and you take a ticket no ; like when you go to a deli counter. Its litterally a conveyor belt of everyone else getting random blood test; and heres me thinking Id have a nice wee chat with a fertility nurse/doctor and get the lowdown about what was going on ; when in reality its a young nurse taking a sample of your blood in one vial and getting a marker to write your name and its a " thanks very much; you're done" "OH!!"
Well; they said it would be a week for the results but I know better as any x-ray; test result I have EVER had in our surgery is at least 2-3 weeks ; don't know if thats common or just my surgery. I will call in on Wed but I won't be surprised if they say call back next week. I am off on holiday anyhow; and could actually find out over there that I am pregnant.
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