Wednesday 23 November 2011

Cabin crew Over 35 and still trying for a baby!

I think its about day 17 of the never ending cycle of trying for a baby; its month 16 of trying.
I shouldn't complain as I flew with a lovely lady last week; who tried IVF; and it was unsucessful; she said she wasted so much time not going for it sooner. Now she is 40.
She did all the stuff I have done. The supplements; the legs in the air; ovulation test kits all the usual; changed diet etc... then went to an NHS person who did all the tests like me; all normal ; she went for adpotion but was turned down on account of her husband being Carribean and she is white and the kid was not right ethnic origin or something. Terrible. NOW her next step is going to America next year However; her hubby was turned down for a visa; and she obviously needs him there for his sperm and she is not taking anyone elses.
I really feel for her so cant really complain about my situation although it is dissapointing.
So I was "ovulating " a few days ago. I think....
Day 14 I took a test it was neg; and day 15 the line was only barely marginally darker; so I think I ovualted.... and couldnt check on day 16 as I ran out of tests. anyways I was in Baltimore on day 16. But we had sex on the morning of day 15 as I was off to Baltimore later that morning and I didnt really have a lot of time to keep my legs up either. 5mins tops as I had to pack ...lol
The boob soreness is not affecting me this month but it may kick in ;in a few days. Its unusual as I have had very bad boob soreness every month for the last year. They're itchy all the time though for months and months !
Been wondering if dehydration is not helping me get pregnant; flying is very dehydrating!! And I dont drink enough; I struggle to drink water; I drink loads of tea and red wine( well about a glass with dinner most nights. :D but very little else; however I have made a concerted effort to drink more water this month and its speeded up my metabolism which is brilliant as I could have gone 2-3 sometimes 4 days without going to the loo and we eat loads of veg  and very little processed foods so I was getting down not losing any weight but although I am now same on the scales I have definately got no bloat and everything fits better . So happy days!!!!
I think maybe if I keep drinking the water; keep up what I am doing I will be pregnant by Feb .. fingers crossed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday 13 November 2011

Back to square one!! again

Deep deep sigh.....
I have been meaning to update this for well over a week. I had secretly been convincing myself again last month that this had been the month and it wasn't again.... I mean its good I suppose that I'm positive every month but its waning.
I need a boost; I have litterally run out of problems that could be wrong But... I was flying last week with a girl who is 30- 6 yrs my junior and one of the girls was like " oh you better get a move on; you'll never fall pregnant with flying" and Im like "shiiiiiiiiittttt!!!!!
Maybe it is a lot to do with it... but there are other girls who seem to get pregnant; although come to think of it I hear more stories of people in my job relentlessly trying than getting pregnant.
So anyway; I digress; I came on last week; day or two later my sis has the most adorable pics on facebook of her baby son watching the fireworks; and it breaks my heart; I wish it was me sharing those moments. My profile pic is of my wee nephew ; I just adore him. It has to happen soon and I would love to know if this IS a flying issue. I could leave a job I love and realise its just one of those things; it should happen in the next few months; it HAS to..
:(

Wednesday 2 November 2011

Cabin crew Over 35 and still trying for a baby!

Its day..... 26 of the cycle; I do again have the sore boobs; which I've had now for a few days but I get it every month so have stopped getting 'excited' now at sore boobs. Like; I don't think when I am actually pregnant I will know the level of sore boobs difference. It hurts walking downstairs for Gods sake! .. and I don't have particularly big boobs or anything that are bouncing about by merely walking downstairs.
Anyhooo I digress;  Have been away with a fantastic crew last few days; again lots of older Mums. In fact last week I was at playgroup with my sisters baby; we were chatting to a 27yr old on her 3rd baby but she said the last 2 took 14-16 months respectively after having been on the pill... I do think it has a LOT to do with my issues falling pregnant. Of course flying doesn't help my body clock at all.
So these crew I flew with; they are not shy about details; we are a very open bunch; she said; ( she has two boys) she fell pregnant with her youngest at 39 and  her words were... and bear in mind we were in a busy restaurant and she is very loud with a very strong Welsh accent " Well; when you go for a wee stick your fingers inside and if you put your thumb and finger together and it sticks together a bit like chewing gum then you need to have a shag basically!"


Firstly what having a wee has to do with it I will never know thoughts of wee fingers springs to mind... She repeated this advise to me at least 3 times throughout the trip... " now don't forget to stick your fingers in your fanny..." lol Nutter.
Also been flying with so many childless women; who have chosen career over babies and now regret it. Because back in the day you'd lose your job flying once you had kids. So sad really. This particular lady is now late 50's and lamenting over an ex boyfriend who she split up with over a year ago; desperately wanting a text to say why... why have you forsaken me?? Back story is he is married... 2 kids... and she looks about 10yrs older than her years and is a bit highly strung and over emotional... so....... I dunno... she is baffled !!!
God love her.
back to the topic in hand though... I have no more symptoms of anything aside from the usual sore boobs.
Will know on Sunday but this month; which is almost a first I have no feeling that this is the month, like I normally do.
Will update again in a day or so.